The Idiot World of a Lil' Girl

2011-09-01T12:49:00.002+08:00

New Blog:

Used to be 17

2010-01-20T18:42:00.002+08:00

This would be my last post here because I had finally decided that I am no longer a 'little girl'

I am a bit too old to be a little girl. 23!

A few days ago, someone told me that I sounded like a 17 year-old kid... and all of sudden I felt old because my real age would be 17 + 6 = 23

Hmmm...

High school was 6 years ago. LOL....

How should I call this? Young-Adult-Crisis?

Anyway, my new blog will be at my profile.

or you can click here

MANGO MANGO

Da~

Think Positive. Toujour Content et Sourire! (-:

2010-01-18T00:54:00.002+08:00

My mum told to give thanks to everything...
I looked at her...
Expressionless~
And said...

"How could I give thanks when all the bad things seems to happen around me"

A few months ago I lost my wallet twice...

A few weeks ago, my phone was snatched... and I broke my laptop's monitor.

And I asked myself why?
But there is no answer to it.

I read back my entry in this blog and it was mostly about complaints, my depression, how much I hate this world and similar stuff. Terrible.

And just now I was inspired by this documentary about Law of Attraction. Go google if you wanna know more about it. LOL.

So, the first step I'm gonna take is to set a goal!

I didn't set any resolution this year because I didn't know what I need.

But now I've figured out what I need. Here you go my 2010's resolution!

"Think positive. Toujour content et sourire!"

That's my new year's resolution. The rest will start to grow from there.

5 more months to getting old. Old?

2010-01-14T19:37:00.000+08:00

What would you do?

Have you ever made up your mind to do something?
And you were very determine about doing that thing?
And all of sudden...

You realize that that decision of yours might not be a good idea.

Reason:
Because you found out that one small little thing might kill all your mood to do that something.

Lesson learnt:
Next time when I grow up, I will make sure that every small little things are taken care of so that I would not hurt one small useless heart of someone. Even if that person is just like a 'Bunga Taik Ayam' by the road side.

In another point of view:
Maybe I am over sensitive. Like a bitch.

I don't know. Now I really don't know.

All of sudden, I just feel like I am actually all alone except that I have God.

Helpless...
Knowing that there's no one you can truly depend on...
Feel like I can only rely on myself...
But I am unreliable...
So I can't even rely on myself...

Hmmm...

I don't know if this is what I really want.

I thought I would like it...
But now, I am not sure.

I don't know

2010-01-11T07:47:00.000+08:00

I don't know what I was thinking...
There seems to be so many regrets...

I don't know why am I trapped...
When in reality I am as free as oxygen...

I don't know how long I will have to wait...

Waiting...

For...

...

In case I forget why I write this... I write this because all of sudden I found out that there are so many regrets in my life.

Is it a bit too early to feel regret?

Regrets.

DF.
LI.
IA.
SS.

Homosexuality

2010-01-07T23:56:00.001+08:00

I took this picture yesterday.

I like how that two lil birds perched high on the naked trees. Cute!

I think they are friends or maybe lovers... but what if they are both male? That would make them homosexual.

Does it matter if they are homosexual?

Just wondering. I am straight by the way. :-)

Ciao.
Au revoir.
Christina tres mignone~

You Only See What You Want to See

2010-01-05T18:38:00.001+08:00

Caption: I believe that there are 2 lady-ghosts near the roof top. Picture taken & edited by ME.

It is human nature that we love to deceive ourselves to get a good story out of something. That is what most people do and yes, I did that too sometimes

But don't do it to the point where people will known you as a psychotic; for example, MJ. He is living in his own world... that's what people say - but how sure are you?

Again, people only see what they want to see.

Listen to what they want to hear.

And speak whatever things they want to say.

We call this selective attention.

Let's not be biased. I will change it into a smaller niche by referring to those as 'certain people'.

[I will continue talking bout this when I get another related photo. There are just too many things to say]

Ciao.

Au revoir.

I just found out that

2010-01-04T21:01:00.001+08:00

" I am not a leader when it comes to conversation,

I am more to a follower~"

(Yeoh, C.W.K, 2010)

I quote myself again.

Saya Sebuah Kipas

2009-12-29T23:46:00.002+08:00

Caption: Picture taken by QiQin. Edited by moi~

Saya sebuah kipas.

Kerja saya sangat mudah iaitu mengipas manusia.

Manusia ni bodoh.

Kerja mengipas yang senang pon tak reti nak buat.

So, here I come to their rescue!

Diorang ni suka saya kipas lama-lama kat diorang.

Tapi saya ni maha adil!

Saya akan pusing 180 darjah dan memastikan bahawa semua orang menikmati angin saya.

...

Yang peliknya,

Mengapa tak ada orang yang kipas saya?

Badan saya sentiasa panas.

Cuaca sekarang semakin panas.

Saya benci PANAS!

Manusia kata global warming yang mengakibatkan cuaca terlampau panas ini.

Karbon Dioksida sedang berperang dengan Oksigen.

Mereka saling merebut takthta.

O2 kata: This is my turf! CO2! I think you should know that your population is getting bigger and is taking away my territory little by little!

CO2 balas: O2! You should know that now it's time for you to step down! Give us some opportunity to conquer the earth!

O2 kata: You can't do that! I am the KING! Human needs ME more!!!

CO2 kata: Human needs me too!!!! The plants need me!

Maka, mereka pon saling bertengkah dan ia menjadi sebuah kisah yang tiada penghujungnya.

O2 or CO2~

It's us, human to decide.

Bukan Kipas.

Bukan Oksigen.

Bukan Karbon Dioksida.

Splash of Culture

2009-12-29T22:36:00.001+08:00

I got this shot from Senai town. Next to the bus stop.

I think they are a couple.

An Indonesian lady and a gentlemen from Bangladesh.

No matter where you go, you need LOVE.

Byebye~

God Bless You.

Stamps

2009-12-28T21:59:00.001+08:00

Caption: Picture taken by moi~ My stamps book.

When I was a little girl, just like every other kids, one of my hobby is to collect stamps.

It seems like every kid enjoy collecting stamps during those days. (This is the first sign of getting old... those days?????)

Whatever.

So, I decided that I want to collect stamp too. I only have one stamps book. ONLY ONE.

The funny part is that... all these are my stamps... but the one who help me to collect the stamps is my little brother, Alex. HA HA HA....

Isn't he cute, sweet and thoughful?

Everytime when we go to the church, he would help me to tear the stamps from the envelope so that I will have more stamps in my collection.

I have such a nice brother.

Jealous?

That's all.

God bless you and have FUN!

Kids are cute!

2009-12-28T01:13:00.000+08:00

A picture paints a thousand word. La la la...

From this picture, you can already tell so much about those kids.

So, can you tell me what you think?

tata~ God bless ya!

Christmas at Church

2009-12-25T23:53:00.001+08:00

Caption: Elo~ My name is Christina Jr. I am so cute. Merci.

Cute? CUTE????

Jealous?????

This is my Christmas present. The Christmas celebration just now was simple but FUN. I can't wait for next year oredi. Few more days and it will be 2010!

La la la~

Okies. That's all. I am tired oredi~ Tata~ but wait... I think I want to share more pic.

Caption: Kids taking their Christmas present. Where's mine? mine? Mine? Cute...

It reminds me of myself when I was a little girl I will not go and take the present because I am afraid. In fact, as a child, I was afraid of everything... for no reason. LOL. My little brother would be the one who help me to take the present. Ha ha ha... FUNNY!

Caption: These two boys are Chindian. Camera shy shy. Jason is on the right. Next to him is his brother.

Caption: During the worship. Uncle Sunny on the most left and Uncle Elley. I am behind the piano. So you cannot see moi! KA KA KA...

Caption: He loves camera. Cheese~

BAIKLAH SAYA SUDAH MALAS. BYEBYE.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Merry Christmas

2009-12-25T17:12:00.000+08:00

Another Christmas has arrive...

Smile~

Another Christmas means a new year is approaching.

:-)

Nothing much to say. Just want to wish all of you Merry Christmas!

God Bless You!
xoxo

Nothing Else Matter When I Have You - Muaks

2009-12-25T15:47:00.001+08:00

Dream

2009-12-24T04:42:00.001+08:00

Stupid Bitchy Heart

2009-12-21T00:11:00.000+08:00

Creative Bitch

2009-12-21T00:06:00.000+08:00

Please click on the image for larger view.

It has nothing to do with any bitch. Just that I feel like putting the word bitch there.

YOU BITCH!

Emo Bitch

2009-12-21T00:04:00.000+08:00

Please click on the picture for a larger view.

My drawing. No eyes because I dunno how to draw eyes. HA HA HA.

Je le monde deteste.

2009-12-19T22:51:00.002+08:00

I hate this world.

This world is always cruel to me.

Why must the world treat me so badly?

I did not hurt the world in any way.

All I ever did was stay in my own room. Mind my own business.

I hate this world.

I hate it and I am tired of all these stupid things that happen around me.

I hate all these unpleasant surprises.

I hate all these stupid games of life.

I hate the world.

I hate this world and I don't want to be in this world.

I hate this world.

I hate this world to the core of my heart.

I hate it!

I hate this world.

I hate how the world treat people unfairly.

Fuck the world.

World = hell!

I don't want to live in this world!

I want to sleep now and I wish that tomorrow when I wake up, I am dead.

Avatar

2009-12-18T00:17:00.000+08:00

I went to see Avatar with my dear lil brother this afternoon.

Upon 5, I would rate it 4.8 because they should have go in details about how Jake Sully get the Toruk!!!!!!! Hmmm... that's the only part I hate.

This movie has a typical story line I would say. It's quite predictable. However, I can't help myself from liking it so much because it is so meaningful.

It makes me reflects back on my own life and of course human.

There are many things in this world which is much more valuable than money and wealth. Most of us fail to understand this.

Actually, most of us know it but none of us have the courage to step out of this kind of life the world set for us.

Avatar... the whole movie is a concept. This is how I understand it. Different people will have different opinion.

Haaaaaa... nice movie. AVATAR! dun miss it.

Small Little Creature (Original) - Christina Yeoh

2009-12-14T21:33:00.002+08:00

Inspiration: Ants
Music & Lyrics: Christina Yeoh
Location: Section 14, Petaling Jaya

Whenever I see you
You're walking somewhere
With your group of friends
I never see you walk alone
No matter if it rains
Or if the sun shines... brightly
Keep walking
That's what you say

You only move forward
You never look back
And you make wonder
If you know I'm looking
You don't seems to bother
If I step on you
Keep walking
That's what you say

[to be continued]

I dunno what to write next... So, ciao~

Ants

2009-12-14T20:58:00.006+08:00

Caption: Picture by me. Taken at Balai Polis Bedong, Kedah Darul Aman.

Click on the picture for larger image.

Have you ever seen any ants stood still at one place? Without moving? Without doing anything? I've been living in this world for about 22 years and there are only two types of ants that don't move...

1. The Queen of the ants

2. The DEAD ants

All the other types of ants never rest.

Do they feel tired?

Is their life is all about walking?

Walk walk walk walk walk...

Whenever I see them, they are moving.

When I tried to block their path, they will never give up in searching for the way out.

They will not sit idle for even one second. They will not think of a strategy on how to counter your attack... They never walk backwards, all they do is to move forward.

Never Look Back.

That's their life slogan.

And sometimes i squeeze them... and they died. Just like that.

ANTS.

Courage? Determination? Plain Stupid?

A bit of all i guess.

ants...

I don't want to exist

2009-12-12T00:44:00.000+08:00

It's boring...

I feel like skipping exam tomorrow because I don't feel like going into the hall.

What is the point?

Why do I need to take degree?

I want to do horrible things to myself...
Name it...

Chicken dun dare to do it.

So... forget it.

I don't want to be in this world.
It is boring.

I don't know what to do.

I want the world to stop moving.
I want the brain to stop thinking.
I want the clock to stop ticking.
I don't want to exist.
I don't want to be any substance of this world.

I don't want to be anything.

Not even bird.
Not even droplets of rain.
Not even rainbow.
Not even the grass.
Not even a millionaire.

I don't want to be anything and I don't want to exist in this world.

Money is nothing...
Happiness is not forever...
Pain is constant...

I don't want to fly
I don't want to run
I don't want to walk
I don't want to move
I don't want to breath
I don't want to blink
I don't want to listen
I don't want to see
I don't want to taste
I don't want to touch
I don't want to talk
I don't want any sense
I don't want to feel

I don't want anything

I don't know...
If you know...
What I mean...

I think no one knows...
What I meant...

I just don't want to exist.

Saya Suka Ini Lagu

2009-12-10T18:02:00.002+08:00

Temptation

2009-12-09T20:32:00.001+08:00

Temptation.

Lead me not into temptation...

What is temptation really?

สิ่ง ล่อ ใจ

sing lo jai

诱惑

yòu huò

...

Is this temptation?

Everything attack you at one time.

This doesn't sound like temptation to me.

This sounds more like a war.

A war between myself and the world.

It's abstract.

It can't really be seen with your naked eyes.

It can't even be felt by your blind heart.

Funny...

Never ending of funny stories.

One two three four and bla bla bla...

Byebye and God bless ya.

Love,

Christina Yeoh

-the not so human girl-

You Will Never Know

2009-12-06T21:17:00.000+08:00

"Commit to the LORD whatever you do, and your plan will succeed."

Proverb 16:3

I learn new lesson everyday and I learn to depend on God more and more as I grew up. One lesson that I learnt over and over again is that 'Nothing is impossible when you learn how to depend on God.' God will always have His own way to make things possible for us. All we need to do is have a little faith. Have faith in Him and trust him with all your heart.

I had my campaign launch last week. A day before the campaign launch, we had our rehearsals and we received a lot of comments from our tutors and lecturer. Those comments were meant to be good for us as they were all constructive comments. Nothing to bring us down. Just something for us to improve ourselves.

We did take those comments and made a lot of last minute changes to our campaign launch.

On that rehearsal night, it was quite obvious that we did not prepare well and everything that went through my mind that time was,

"God, what should I do? I have a feeling that tomorrow's campaign is going to turn into a disaster."

At one point during the rehearsal, I couldn't think anymore on what should I do. So I went into PC206, a classroom near the hall, and I sit down and pray and I cry to God. Beg God to make it possible for us tomorrow that nothing will go wrong for God has promised us to commit in Him and our plan will succeed...

I prayed and cried to God, then Jac, one of the campaign leaders came into the room to call me for press conference (PC) rehearsal. It was quite embarrassing. HA HA HA... I always do sia-sui (embarrassing) stuff. Jac told me this,

"Don't worry, everything will be OK"

Then we went for PC rehearsal. Things weren't that bad for PC rehearsal.

Well, in short, the rehearsal for the launch was horrible and I felt hopeless.

The next day, it's the launching day~

He he he... We were all energetic and enthusiastic! BUT, the launch still turn out horrible. ha ha ha... there were so many technical problems and haizzzz.... dunno what to say. tapi memang memalukan ar...

It was quite a disappointment... but I was not sad...

But what I want to share here is that, you will never know how God works. Today, we received good news! Our campaign has got media coverage in one of the Chinese Newspaper! HA HA HA... Hope that this will help us boost up our marks. Haih...

Thing will always work out... in the most unpredictable way though. Unexpected!

Anyway, God bless ya!

I'm just a lil girl

2009-12-02T23:10:00.000+08:00

No matter how hard you try to hide your emotion...
In front of your mum, you are just a fragile lil kid...

No matter how old you are...
In front of your mum you are no more than just a lil girl...

No matter how hard you try to hold your tears...
In front of your mum you will turn into a crybaby...

Rumba~

2009-11-29T17:19:00.001+08:00

one two three four...
uno dos tres cuatro...
rumba~

ha ha ha...

i dunno... i kept repeating this song.

i know you want me~
you know i want cha~
i know you want me~
you know i want cha~

i like the way pitbull say 'RUMBA'

RUMBAAAA...

ha ha ha...

Anyway, here's the video if u dunno what i was talking about.

Few more days and the campaign will be over!!!!!

I can't waittttt!!!!!!!!!

Cuz im getting sick of this stupid campaign which is full of POLITICS!

and i can't wait to start my FYP.

miss my mum. byebye!

Bu Bu Bu

2009-11-24T23:24:00.001+08:00

Bad things always happen me...
But good things will always follow after...

There was one time, I was very depressed. So I called my mum and I cried. Then my mum told me this...

"Don't be sad or feel bad if you cry because you are the most fortunate person when you cry."

At first, I don't understand it. how can anyone who cried in their pain, in their bad times or in their sorrow be fortunate? It doesn't make sense at all.

So I went silent for a while. Speechless.

Then she continued...

"While you were crying, God was there wiping away your every single tears..."

This is taken from Isaiah 25:8

"...LORD will wipe away the tears from all faces"

And just now, I found this verse

"And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So, don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows."

Matthew 10:30

So, I don't have to worry. This is part of life i guess... At least, when I am old, I will have so many stories to tell. So many experiences to share. I just hope that I can remember all of those.

Today is definitely not a good day for me but I am happy because I know that God loves me.

2 bad things happen in one day...

Fuhhhhh~

I need to sleep. Can I?

My World of Being Sweet and Sour

2009-11-21T18:13:00.005+08:00

What is the nicest thing a person can do to another soul?

There are many things we can do to make people feel good about themselves or to cheer up their day at least.

For instance:-
1. You could smile to a stranger and say "Hi, gorgeous"

2. You could fart loudly; smirk arrogantly; then say "Farting is the gift from God. Let's utilize it to the max."

3. You could sit down quietly... staring at the sky and enjoy the beauty of nature. When people see you doing that, they would feel good because you just proved to them that "Human Still Exist". I don't know if you can get what I am trying to say here but seeing people enjoy the view of nature makes me feel happy? Yea... It makes me feel like human again.

4. You could smack your mum's butt and say... "Whoaaa, you have tight ass." This is what I did to my mum. Sometimes I accidentally do it in the public and my brother would say "Hey asshole, stop that. People's staring at u!!!!!!" Ha ha ha... Then we laugh. Cuz it makes us feel happy. You will never understand this until you smack your mum's butt.

5. You could act like a real pervert to your friend when they try to crack some light pervee jokes with you. I do this all the time but I'm not a pervert. My friends would always ended up looking at me with a cold face. Something like this >>>>>>> -_-" Then I would laugh loudly because it's so damn FUNNY! HA HA HA.

6. You could annoy your loved one to the point that they would feel like killing you because the end result is good. People's gonna miss you when you are not around to annoy them. Deep down inside their heart, people loved to be ANNOYED (Yeoh, 2009). Ha ha ha... i juz quoted myself.

7.You could send a card to someone you never met and write sweet & nice things in it so that they would read the card while smiling; and reread it back when they feel like they need motivation.

8. What else can you do?

If I were to continue, this thing will be a never ending story because there are sooooooooo many things you can do to make another person feel happy.

But today, I made someone sad.

My intention is not to make him sad or to hurt him or to embarrass him or to do any harm to him. I just need to make a decision.

I wonder how Barrack Obama, Bill Clinton, King David, King Solomon, Hitler, Lee Kuan Yew and all those leaders sleep at night.

Do they sleep at all?

LOL.

And now, I wonder if you understand what I am talking about. HA HA HA

God bless you!
BYEBYE.

bad dream

2009-11-18T19:41:00.000+08:00

I've been having similar dreams lately... it is not so nice because it was scary....

a few weeks ago, i had this weird dream...

I was walking in the public wearing a skirt with a big hole at the back. It's a plain white skirt... with a very big hole. In that dream i don't care bout the hole. i kept walking and people's looking at me but i don't care... that's all i could remember...

then, a few days ago, i dream bout this...

I was sleeping on my bed naked. In my room... then all of sudden 2 of my friends, (i can't remember who they are) open the door to my room... and they saw me naked. all of us were shocked... i screamed then i ran to the door and close it.

that's all...

and, just now! i had this kind of dream again... it is creepy...

i dream that i was hanging out at a restaurant by the road with my friend. it was at night. i ordered a drink and there's this lady. she looks creepy... she brought me the drink and whn i asked for the price, she mumbled something and i couldn't hear her. I didn't know why, but i sounded angry in that dream. I asked her again in a rude manner to repeat the price...

but, she didn't. instead, she was looking at me with the im-gonna-kill-you looks. then she walked away without taking the money.

then, i can't remember what happen next...

All of sudden, my friends had to leave so i was left alone at the restaurant. i sat there for a while the i decided to go and pay for my drinks. i went to the counter and the creepy lady was there. she doesn't look scary anymore. all of sudden, she was holding my phone and browsing through my pictures and there were naked pic of me in the phone. so i snatched it back. then, all of sudden, i was giving her something... i don't know wht were those things.... it's small, in the rectangular shape... and it had my naked pic printed on it... i didn't realise that... then she laugh... so creepily... then i said nooooooo after realising what's on it... i tried to get those things back... but she refused to give. then i bit her finger... i bit her finger off... she was bleeding and then she fainted.

i felt safe for a while... that small stuff fell everywhere... so i faster collect them. i am not sure if some of the pieces were left out. but in that dream, i know that i had to run. then, i hailed a cab... but i was scared that people might notice me going on to the cab... so run a big round... to go to the very same cab... but one of the dude already notice me... so i kept on running... then i woke up...

and in the whole process of dreaming, i knew that it was a dream.

that's all... it's scary.

shit

2009-11-17T05:07:00.000+08:00

I cannot sleep at night.

The moment I rest my head on the pillow, I will start thinking.

I can only sleep when I am extremely tired... which is during the day...

whtever...

nite...

So, what is justice really?

2009-11-14T15:20:00.001+08:00

"I proclaim that justice is nothing else than the interest of the stronger"

Thrasymacus, 459-400 BC (Plato c. 428-348 BC)

Look at what I found today! Isn't it interesting? The truth is that there is no justice in this world. This is why the rich gets richer and the poor gets poorer.

Law is created to protect the status of the rich. How does it really help us, the middle class? Only the rich can afford to get justice because justice is freaking hell expensive. Sometimes it even cost lives. Thrasymacus must be a genius for being able to find out the secret behind 'JUSTICE' as early as 2500 years ago.

No wonder King Solomon said this,

"There's nothing new in this world"

Everything has been the same for centuries. Human have never change and they will never change... This is why not everyone will go to heaven.

Anyway, thank God that I was bored and I went to MPH yesterday.

It's totally worth it for me (a poor girl who doesn't have money to pay for her final sem tuition fees) to spend RM59.90 on this book entitled '501 Must-Know Speeches'.

I have a bigger dream than to know all the MUST-KNOW speech.

I want to shake the world with my speech.

That's all from me. Have a nice day and God bless ya!

The future Popular + Successful one,
Christina Yeoh

P.s- God will bless me and provide the tuition fees for me. Miracles happen all the time. Open your eyes wider and you will realise that sometimes your life just doesn't make sense because it is full of MIRACLES. Isn't it wonderful?

Now you wouldn't believe me because I don't have the credibility to convince you. But someday - trust me... someday! People's gonna quote this from me...

"Life doesn't make sense because it is full of miracles - Yeoh, C.W.K. (2009).

I need to type something

2009-11-12T00:39:00.000+08:00

Something is what i need
But I don't know what is that something that I need

Maybe I know exactly what I need
But I pretend not to know that it's the thing I need

Crazy right? I always talk nonsense to myself. Nonsense...

Yeah... talking nonsense...

BYEBYE

:-)

2009-11-04T03:51:00.001+08:00

Faith

2009-11-03T21:41:00.000+08:00

I tend to worry too much... at the end of the day, everything will always turn out OK.

Just like my last week's assignment.

Have a lil faith, Christina!

vacuum

2009-10-28T23:57:00.000+08:00

I think this is the first time i feel so clueless about my assignment. I don't know how to start.

I hope it's not clueless but just plain lazy. Hoping... but something is telling me that i am clueless.

I don't want to talk about any assignments... i feel like my life is surrounded by assignments. this and that... and bla bla bla

i feel like i have no life...

i feel like i am living in vacuum
A white feather, floating in vacuum

Can i describe my life as vacuum?
Life with no matter and no pressure
But it kills you

Ouch...
I think I am getting migraine

yeay~

2009-10-15T15:40:00.002+08:00

Yeayyyy. CGPA drop!!!! YEAAYYYY...

La la la

2009-10-14T16:02:00.000+08:00

Don't know what to say.

I am waiting for my result...

I don't know what I feel. It's the same every semester.

Ha ha ha...

Let it be (-:

God bless me!!!!!!

Amen.

Life of the Middle Class

2009-10-14T01:26:00.000+08:00

Metro Bus. This is how it looks like on the inside.

It is never comfortable inside this bus. Sometimes everyone will have to stand so close to each other because the bus is very full. It's like butt to butt and shoulder to shoulder.But what other option do we have? All of us just want to get home as soon as possible. Right?

Inside this bus you will hear the bus conductor shout...

"Masuk lagi... blakang! blakang!"

"Masuk lagi kak!"

or sometimes...

"Oi! Belakang!"

I notice they always use this rude one to the non-malaysian... racist!

but not all of them are rude. some of them are quite nice.

In metro bus, you can see many interesting stuff.

BTW, i am lazy to type. bye.

Middle Child Syndrome

2009-10-06T21:55:00.000+08:00

I went to the church the other day
I saw this little girl sitting on the floor near a chair
She was crying
I would prefer sobbing
She was sobbing

She tried to keep it silent
But everyone who sat near her could hear it
It wasn't loud
It wasn't annoying
But it was sad
And melancholic

It's like a sad music being played on the radio
It's like the sound of an er hu being played at night by a sad musician

It was very sad

Her tears kept on flowing down
And she kept on wiping them
With the back of both of her hands
She wiped all the tears away
Left hand for the left eye
Right hand for the right eye
Each take turns one by one
Sometimes both at the same time

Her tears kept on flowing constantly and she kept on wiping them away

"Go away!"

Said her little pure heart.

It seems like she wanted to stop them
But they refused to freeze

"You idiot... Stop coming out!"

I could hear her heart saying that weakly and silently
She tried to be firm
But those tears just don't want to listen to her

"We don't care! We're gonna show ourselves to the world."

Said those tears.

She is so small
She looked so fragile

Her eyes were red and swollen
She was wearing a cute little red dress
She sat on the floor with both her legs folded to the back
Her head was slightly bowed down
Her hair covered part of her face
That seems to help her to hide her pain from the world
But it made her looked even more painful

She looks very sad
She is hurt
She looks inferior
She has the look of someone who is unable to fight

But I know she is going to be very strong some day
Because that was how I used to be
I saw the me in her

We are both middle child

Middle child syndrome

Hard Nipples

2009-10-05T14:47:00.001+08:00

I have one funny story to tell.

My church have one auntie she likes to sing so LOUDLY.

Her voice is like the chinese opera singer. LOL.

And guess what happened?

Yesterday when she sang, my nipples go hard. It's shrinking you know?????

I thought your nipples only go hard when you are horny or cold.

Well...

It's impossible that I am turning on while listening to her singing. No way.

Have you ever heard bout the voice that could break the glass?

I think we could use this concept and apply it to this situation.

Ha ha ha...

That's all for now.

tata~

God bless ya!

Tears In Heaven

2009-10-03T16:04:00.001+08:00

Yesterday my lil bro came home! Hooray! hehehe...

Miss him :-D

He played me this song - Tears In Heaven arranged by Masa Sumide with the purpose of showing off. LOL. Damn... He's getting better at it you know. I felt like crying listening to it. SentiMENTAL song *sob sob*.

Anyway, I feel so much better now. Home is the best cure to all kind of pain! Trust me ;)

Have a nice day! God Bless Ya!

ชีวิตหนี้ - chivit ni - this life

2009-10-01T00:13:00.003+08:00

Tak paham? Saya malas translate. :-)
*dah rajin so I decided to translate*
And the translation is like direct translation. LOL. So, it will not sound nice and there might be grammar mistake. KA KA KA!

Basically it is about the rich gets richer and the poor gets poorer. About how the poor will have to suffer. About inequality in life. About the poor being OPPRESSED!
:-) CHIVIT!!!!

แบกชีวิต พอเกิดมาก็เป็นหนี้
baek chivit, pho geurd ma gaw pen ni
Carry life, born with debt
(baek means carry something really heavy on your back. So, this part shows that life is tough for average class people.)

อยู่อย่างนี้ ทำอย่างไรก็ไม่พ้น
yoo yang ni, tum yarng rai gaw mai phon
Live like this, no matter what you do you can never escape
(so, this part it sort of like talking about democracy. Where everyone will get the equal chance to change their life. The poor can be rich if they work hard. However, the reality is that, no matter how hard you work, you can never change your class. Only a few lucky people will get that opportunity. Just like in communication theories. There's this theory called Mass Society Theory - the existance of working class. Most of us are the working class people. WORK FOR MONEY but MONEY IS STILL NEVER ENOUGH. sad~)

ยังอยากจะมี เงินไม่พอ ต้องขอผ่อน
yang yark ja me, nguern mai pho dtong kho phon

หากเดือดร้อน ก็จะยอมสู้อดทน
hak duerd ron, gaw ja yom soo od thon
If troubled, still will have to fight and endure

[CHORUS]
ทำยังไงได้ ก็ไม่ได้เกิด มาบนกองทอง
tum yarng ngai dai, gaw mai dai guerd ma boan kong thong
What to do? We did not born on pile of gold

พ่อแม่พี่น้องทุกคน ก็ประชาชนเดินดิน
pho mae phi nong took khon gaw pra chan chon duen din
Father, mother, sister, brother are just normal people

หากชีวิตนี้ ไม่สิ้น ก็ดิ้น กัน ไป
hak chivit ni mai sin gaw din kan pie
If this life doesn't end, then you'll have no choice but to dance along

ชีวิตนี้ใช้หนี้อย่างเดียว
chivit ni chai nee yarng deaw
All this life is devoted to paying debt

เมื่อรายรับ มันไม่พอ รับรายจ่าย
muea rai rap, man mai pho rap rai jai
The salary you get is not enough for you to live

ต้องกินต้องใช้ ทำอย่างไรก็กู้เขา
tong kin tong chai, tum yarng rai gaw ku khao
Have to eat, have to spend, you'll have no choice but to borrow from them
(Them refer to the banks... Ah Long. stuff like that. ha ha ha)

ไม่ใช่เศรษฐี นามสกุล ไม่เป็นข่าว
mai chai saert ti, nam sa kunl mai pen kao
not a millionaire, the surname has no value
(The Thais they have surname and from surname they can know if you are rich or poor)

เป็นแค่คนเดินเท้า คนอย่างเราก็ต้องทน
pen khae khon dearn thao, khon yarng rao gaw tong thon
Merely people who walk on foot, people like us will have to bear.

I love this song. My aunt introduced this song to me a few weeks ago. What a meaningful song... We are all slave of MONEY. haih~

Is there anything I can do to make this world a better place?

:-)

Cool

2009-09-29T08:21:00.001+08:00

I am in Gwenny mood these few days. Gwen Gwen Gwen

Yeay!!!! Nanti gua balik UMAH!

Nyum nyum nyum.

Nak buat apa eh kat rumah?

Girls VS Boys

2009-09-28T23:26:00.001+08:00

Girls are always portrayed as complicated, complex and hard to be understood.

Totally true.

But do you know that guys are no better than girls?

I just don't get it.

Good night.

La la la

2009-09-28T19:19:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... I had my last paper just now.

Theories, Roles and Model of Public Relations.

Guess what?

My friend just told me the answer for Question 1!

And I mine is WRONG!

HA HA HA

30 marks all gone~

la la la

Anyway, that was about my exam. He he he...

Now I am so so free that I don't know what to do :-|

:-D Cheers~

没有了

2009-09-27T16:50:00.000+08:00

我在也不会想你了

可是在我生日那天

或者你的生日那天

我会给你一个惊喜

我最后一个礼物给你

Good good! Now I can be a script writer! Or I can make this song lyrics?

Trying my luck on Chinese song???? I wonder how it's gonna sound like.

Cita-cita!!! Wahahahaha...

明天不可以会家 - ming2 tian bu4 ke2 yi3 hui2 jia - Esok Tak Boleh Balik Rumah

2009-09-27T13:38:00.000+08:00

See... I am so nice. I even translate it for you guys in case you don't know how to read it.

So, I can't go home tomorrow. I will have to wait till Tuesday morning. 24 hours is not that long right?

Miss home miss home.

This stupid campaign!!!!! Really takes a lot of my time. STUPID STUPID STUPID. Well, I just hope that the outcome is GOOD! Better be! Damn it! DAMN IT!

Anyway,

My mum told me that she has got a wireless modem!

That means I can go online in my room and record myself playing piano and then upload it here so that everyone will get ear-bleed. *betul ke ayat cam ni?*

hahaha...

Alright, happy sunday and God bless ya!

This is not suppose to be this.

2009-09-26T22:59:00.000+08:00

Everyone has their own way of expressing themselves and releasing their stress. Well, I have my own way too. Ever since I was a kid, I am always the emotional one. The crybaby, the one who sulk the most, and yeah... just name it. Anything annoying is definitely me.

Well, that was when I was a child. I didn't know the proper way to express myself. If I were to use Public Relations term to explain this, when I was a kid, I expressed my opinion by showing some attitude. All those annoying attitude mentioned above. That helps to release my stress as a kid I guess.

When I was about 9 to 11 years old, I kept cat as my pet. So, I don't cry that much any longer. I talk to my cat. I remember myself hugging my cat a lot. Whenever I was moody, I will just play with my cat. It made me feel better. I guess maybe because the cat is cute. I had my first cat when I was 4 but my brother strangled it to death. LOL. He can't control the strength he released I guess. My second cat was thrown away by my dad because it shits everywhere. I cried for a week. Non-stop. I was 9 years old. There were many many cats after that but my last cat ran away from home. It got culture shock when we shifted to a new place. I was 14 and since then we just don't keep cat any longer. By the way, that cat was called Damn :-P

When I was 12 years old, I started to learn piano and that was the age when I got my first piano. I don't even know how my parents afford a piano that time. We were so poor. My mum was suppose to get herself a sewing machine but instead she got me a piano which cost way more than a sewing machine. It's not brand new. It's a second hand piano but for me, it is perfect :-D I remember that moment. I was so so excited! My first ever real musical instrument! Since then, I guess I started to shift from cats to piano. I started to express myself through music. When I hear a melody, i would imagine what kind of scene would be the best for that piece. Whenever I was sad or troubled, I would go to my piano. When someone in my house were fighting or had any argument, I would start to play the piano. When my dad refused to go to church, I would play him Hymns he is familiar with. Then I realise the wonders my piano can do. Not to brag but it managed to give people peace in mind if I play it with love. I mean it. I don't know how. All I played was simple chords and melody. It's a gift from God I guess *geeeee*

I only learn piano for several years. I stopped when I was 16 years old because I went to boarding school. My life started to change when I go to boarding school. I don't like to study any longer. I just let everything be. Let it be, let it be. At the boarding school, I didn't have my piano with me any longer so my uncle bought me a guitar which I still play till today. It's a Yamaha... classical guitar with nylon strings. I had some basic from my sister. So, I manage to catch up guitar on my own. Apart from playing my guitar, I got a new hobby at boarding school. I started to love writing. I remember myself writing a lot a lot of short stories and made Amina and Umie read them. LOL. We love sharing our writing by the way. It was quite fun. Making up stupid stories. ha ha ha... Especially after we got back our English essays.

Since then, I started to keep a lot a lot of note books and i don't really let people read it unless if I want to share something or if they ask. Writing is so much fun. I started to think more and more about this world since I started writing. I am the most honest when I write for myself. Then slowly I start writing song. Horrible songs. Ha ha ha... One person once told me that I am a loner. Lonely boring loner who cry myself to sleep every night! Quite true. Is that why I feel so special? LOL

Actually, this post is not suppose to be about all these. I actually wanted to share with you guys something I found in my shelf. My old writing. Stupid. Anyway, I think I will just end it here. I don't feel like sharing any longer *moodiness attack*

Why am I so moody?

God bless ya! Bye bye.

Tired

2009-09-26T17:12:00.004+08:00

My mission is to learn one mandarin word per day. It's such a shame that I am Chinese but I don't know how to read mandarin! I'm so envy of my other Chinese friend who knows how to read mandarin!!!! This is unfair!!!!!!!

So, saya sangat tak puas hati! And I'm gonna make sure that I know 30 new words every month! Bluekkkkkkk

累

This means tired or lei4 in mandarin.

Examples:

1) 我很累因为这几天我都在哭

2) 我跑到很累

Okies!!!! That's all for today!

8 more months!

2009-09-25T10:14:00.002+08:00

8 months = about 32 weeks
32 weeks = about 224 days

he he he... then I don't have to study anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!
YEAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

Tapi final year 3 Sem 1 lom habis :-|

Esok paper Crisis management.

And now i am in crisis!

All the best Christina...

Stop acting like a baby... and stop thinking bout the non-necessary stuff!

bodoh punya budak.

sor lui sor lui!

tan hai ngo hou ho ngoi wor...

tim shuin?

:-P

God bless ya!

Tata.

I am retarded, stupid, useless :-)

2009-09-23T21:40:00.007+08:00

There are many reasons why I think I am retarded, stupid and useless.

1. Because I am just retarded, stupid and useless...

2. Same as the above statement...

3. Same same same

4. Because I hate myself! Damn it!

I hate you too! I hate youuuuuuu...

Who is that 'you'?

You are nobody.

But you can't be nobody because 'Nobody is Perfect' and you are not perfect!

So you are?

Somebody????

but no...

You are just another retard.

Now you know why I am retarded, stupid and useless?

tata~ muaks muaks muaks

好想你 - I Miss You So Much

2009-09-22T20:34:00.004+08:00

Hi! My one one and only 这么多天没见
Hi! My one and only zhenme duo tian mei jian
Hi my one and only, haven't seen you for days

可是我总想起你的声音在我耳边
ke shi wo zong xiang qi ni de sheng yin zai wo er bian
But I kept hearing your voice in my head

今天心情好吗是否不愉快
jin tian xin qing hao ma shi fou bu yu kuai
Are you in good mood today? Are you unhappy?

要一切看得开世界没有太坏
yao yi qie dou kan de kai shi jie mei you tai huai
Look at the brighter side, this world is not that bad

虽然不在你身边我的心有一条线
sui ran bu zai ni shen bian wo de xin you yi tiao xian
Even though I am not by your side, My heart has a string

连着你牵着你
lian zhe ni qian zhe ni
Attached to you, guiding you

我好想你想到愿意相信
hao xiang ni xiang dao yuan yi xiang xin
I miss you so much, I miss you till I make myself believe that

我就闭上了眼睛你在这里
wo jiu bi shang le yan jing ni zai zhe li
When I close my eyes, you will be here

别忘记我们的约定一直都在我心里
bie wang ji wo men de yue ding yi zhi dou zai wo xin li
Don't forget our agreement, it is always in my heart

不管你在哪里不要忘了我有多么爱你
bu guan ni zai na li bu yao wang le wo you duo me ai ni
No matter where you are, please don't forget how much I love you

不要忘了吃饭不管有多忙
bu yao wang le chi fan bu guan you duo mang
Don't forget to eat no matter how busy you are

不要忘了开车时候一定要往前看
bu yao wang le kai che shi hou yi ding wang wang qian kan
Don't forget to look to the front when you drive

其实我真的很快乐有你一直守候
qi shi wo zhen de hen kuai le you ni yi zhi shou hou
Actually I am happy to have you here protecting me

一直走到了以后都挽着你的手
yi zhi zou dao le yi hou dou wan zhe ni de shou
Walk forever but still holding your hands

虽然不在你身边但我在你心里面
sui ran bu zai ni shen bian dan wo zai ni xin li mian
Even though I am not by your side, but in my heart

我愿意等着你
wo yuan yi deng zhe ni
I am willing to wait for you

我好想你想到不能呼吸
wo hao xiang ni xiang dao bu neng hu xi
I miss you so much, miss you till I can't breath

想到全身没力气没有关系
xiang dao quan shen mei li qi mei you guan xi
Miss you till my whole body feels weak, but it's ok

你别忘记我们的约定一直都在我心里
ni bie wang ji wo men de yue ding yi zhi dou zai wo xin li
Don't forget our agreement, it's always in my heart

不管你在哪里不要忘了我有多么爱你
bu guan ni zai na li bu yao wang le wo you duo me ai ni
No matter where you are, please don't forget how much I love you

我一直在这里不要忘了我有多么爱你
wo yi zhi zai zhe li bu yao wang le wo you duo me ai ni
I am always here, please don't forget how much I love you

Life is just dots and dots of sad colours

2009-09-22T18:25:00.012+08:00

When your emotion takes control over your body, you will be unproductive.

The extremely emotional mood makes you don't wanna move, eat nor sleep.

You will just lie down wondering what if...

Keep on wondering to all the impossibles.

You will feel exhausted.

You don't care what's gonna happen.

You pray to God to take all the pain away.

You tell yourself it doesn't matter.

But your teary eyes betrayed you.

The time is creeping slowly.

A minute feels like a day.

A day feels like a zillion years.

How logical is that? Not at all.

Because at this point, nothing make sense any longer.

You do not know if your feet is on the ground.

Or if you are flying in the sky.

That's what happened when you are possessed by the spirit of moodiness...

Khid Tueng Khao Jung

2009-09-19T01:25:00.002+08:00

Wan nee chan khid tueng khao eek leaw.

Chan khid tueng khao took wan.

Chan rong hai gorn norn took wan.

Chan nung jorng id khong khao nai friendlist chan took wan.

Jai chan jeb proh wa chan ruk khao sa leaw.

Mai roo tummai chan tueng ruk khao dai.

Chivit nee pralard jung.

Kwam rooseark yarng nee mun torramarn mak mak.

Seear jai.

So I Shall Call This Stupid

2009-09-17T17:53:00.004+08:00

Just now I did something which was very stupid.

I went for lunch with my friend Anna. Well, it was cloudy and as we predicted, it starts raining after we finished our lunch. la la la~

Both of us dun have umbrella... Anna fall sick easily. So, she went to watson and get herself one umbrella. Her house was not far from the food stall... so she walked home.

As for me, i don't fall sick easily. I only fall sick when i cry. FUNNY RITE??? hahahaha... So, I didn't get myself an umbrella. I decided to go to Section 14 bus stop and hail a taxi. la la la~
It was during lunch time, so the traffic there was bad. There were no taxi nor bus.

The rain was still pouring. So, I stand at the bus stop waiting while playing my favourite tune in my head - Cocoon by Jack Johnson. *Wahahaha... Sempat lak wa nak emo*

Dah la hujan... PERFECT song to be played in my head k! :-P

Then all of sudden this weird man approach me.

"So, you are student?"

I was emo... my brain was filled with Cocoon... Then I said...

"Yes"

While looking at this man in his forties I guess. He seems harmless. Then we had some small talk. He said he used to be a lecturer at UM and now he is helping them to do some research. Psycholoogy bla bla bla...

Then he asked me if I want a ride home. Without feeling suspicious bout anything, I hop in the car. A lecturer I thought. How harmful can that be? And the car was Mercedez Benz C or CL or E class... Dun ask me about cars. I can only differentiate Pussy and Penis and not to forget GUITARS! ha ha ha...

In the car, the conversation started to get funny. He told me his ex was Chinese.

I was thinking "Do I look like Chinese?" So what if your ex gf is chinese? Like I care. Besides, what kind of horny lecturer would start talking bout stuff like this? but I just smile :-) buat bodoh.

Then he asked me if I have bf. I can sense the danger. So I said I have a BF. Ha ha ha... Will that help anyway? Think back about it, NO IT DOESN'T. Having BF is definitely useless at that point of time. But at least he won't try to court me. That's what I thought.

Then he asked permission to look at my palm. Then I said...

"My mum asked me not to show my palm to anyone"

Which she did told me that before. Sounds funny eh... A 22-year-old said MY MUM ASKED ME hahahahahaha...

but duhh... I showed him my palm and i regretted it. It makes me feel naked cause trust me your palm TELLS ALOT.

Well, i dunno wht he saw.

But he said I am smart.
Too emotional and attached to my feelings.
And he said I am crazy and weird which means I do crazy stuff.

I think... one of the crazy stuff is to let him send me home.

Then we reach my house.

He wanted to ask me out.

I said I am busy.

Scary you know?

Then he asked for my number.

I dunno how to lie.

So we exchanged number.

Then I ran into my house. Then to my room. Then I PM Shirlyn. And Shirlyn nagged at me.

Then I told Anna... Anna oso scold me.

Then I felt loved by my friends for a few minutes.

HAHAHAHAHAH....

*Attention Seeker*

I DIDN'T THINK THAT MUCH. ALL I THOUGHT OF WHEN I GET INTO THE CAR WAS TO GET HOME FAST AND DRYYYYY.

:-( That's all... :-( Besides, I get a free ride on a mercedez :-(

Always look at the bright side? I am still alive?

Stupid :-)

And juz now I told my mum bout it. And she scolded me. I thought she was gonna laugh. erk...

byebye :-|

I am definitely crazy.

Take This Broken Heart and Leaves~

2009-09-17T12:12:00.002+08:00

Mood: A bit happy... hahaha
Song played in WMP: Jack Johnson - Cocoon

This is another song by Jack Johnson and it's damn NICE!!!!!! I listened to this yesterday while it was raining and the whole environment makes this song PERFECT. It makes me feel like as if I am in a scene of a movie. ha ha ha... In fact I am still listening to this song right now.

I am a bit freaky... you see... when I like a song, I will keep listening to it for days - continuously :-)

Just now my mum called me. She asked me if I am fine. I think my mother has six sense... she always know it if I am not fine... hurt... or sad even though I am 400 km away from her. Mummy is still the best!

BTW, she told me that 'SHE MISSES ME'. Jealous???? ha ha ha...

:-( Miss you too mummy.

And I miss my dad too :-(

:-( I miss my brother as well

My sister is at Ampang but I miss her too :-(

I miss my family :-(

I love banana pancakes and I am gonna marry jack johnson

2009-09-16T09:54:00.011+08:00

Time: 9.53 am
Mood: Sad
Song Played in WMP: Jack Johnson - Banana Pancakes

Hehe... I hvn't blog for quite a while. I was busy with some works. My new semester is going to end soon. My last paper would be on 28 September 2009.

Time really flies... Well, I didn't update my blog but so many things happened these few months. Both good and bad. So, cheers to the good and boo to the bad... Well, the bad wasn't all that bad. A great lesson though. LOL. Well, it's not just a lesson... it's also an event which prove my theory to be accurate! :-P (Don't feel like going into the details)

I think I learn to be more outgoing this semester. I also learn to love myself more. Besides, I think I also learn to pray more often - to always depend on God...

and one painful lesson... PAINFUL lesson. Damn... It hurts :-P But well, you'll never know if you never taste it. This thing is so tempting so I gave it a bite. duhhh~ stupid :-P

And so it became 'HUO2 GAI1' in mandarin... or in malay 'Padan Muka' or in thai 'Somnamna klahuajork!' hahaha... I like the thai version. sounds cute.

Alright... Let's talk about something funny.

Last saturday I went to Jaya One with my friend. There is this bar there called 'Fonterra'. I wonder if any of you guys went there before. It was so funny!!!!!! I would call it a kinky bar. Do you know how they name their cocktails???????????

Well, at first, me and my friends didn't know. So, we went and sit there. Then one of the staff there greet me with my name...

'Hi Christina'

and we were all shocked. How come he knew my name...

And when I saw him, I realise that he is my campaign group member. Well, I get to know many new people from this campaign thingy. cool cool...

So, he introduced a drink to me... and I was speechless when I saw the name...

it's called

HORNY MAGARITA!

hahahahahahahahahahahahaha....

funny funny!!!! so damn FUNNY!

then there are many other funny names like orgasm something... wet vagina... LOL....

It was funny. OK. That's all...

Anyway, I ended up with 'Iced Lemon Tea'. Those drinks are too kinky for me. lol.

Oh yeah! Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslim Friends!

Byebye.
Cheers and God Bless ya!

Smile

2009-07-14T23:25:00.002+08:00

I miss blogging and all i wanna do right now is to have some time on my own - not thinking about anything at all.

*sigh*

As you grew older, you realise that there is nothing interesting about this world. Erm... no no... I think there are many interesting things in this world. It's just that I hvn't found out bout them yet. LOL

I think all I really want is a simple life. I don't even know why I need this degree. I guess we are all victims of technology; victims of money; Victims of greed and not to forget Victims of the WORLD.

Everyone is working so hard because of the standard some stupid people set... i don't even know who started all these - making us believe that we NEED all that when what human really need is a peaceful life~ don't you agree with me??????

Blame the MEDIA!~
Blame advertising!
BLAME ALL THE TECHNOLOGIES!
BLAME ALL THE RICH!

All i really want is to cook when i'm hungry
To sleep when i'm tired
To sing songs when i'm sad
To sit by the river and watch the sun set
in short all i really want is to lead a simple but happy life

Is that too much to ask?

So why am i cracking my head... torturing myself with all these?

I have a choice. I can throw it all and don't care about anything but why?

lol... it always come to a conclusion that i'm merely human with responsibility.

I'm tired.

Happy

2009-06-18T16:49:00.003+08:00

My mum said,

"Start the day with a prayer, and end the day with thanks giving"

Lately I was extremely busy with my assignment as I am in my final year right now. Can you believe it? I had already stay here in PJ for two years!

So, this morning I woke up, worrying about what is going to happen when me and my team present our campaign idea to our lecturer. We were supposed to prepare two 'GOOD' ideas but due to my mistake, my team only prepare well for one idea! The other idea came out last minute and it was not good at all.

As human, sometimes we tend to worry too much and think too much. Seems like I am a typical human. Lol. I didn't know what to do. This lecturer of mine, she has a very high expectation but she is very nice. I like her. hehehe...

I really do not want to mess thing up during the meeting. So, i sat down and pray to God for His guidance. I pray to God to make sure that everything will go on smoothly later on. And again, God answers my prayer. Who said God doesn't exist?

The meeting went on really well! ha ha ha ha... She didn't scream at us and she didn't scold us. :-P So we were all HAPPY! Cheers~

sleepy~ nite nite

faith as big as a mustard seed could move a mountain!

2009-06-12T19:40:00.004+08:00

saya stress... :-(

what should i do? otak saya sudah beku.

in advertising, getting stuck is part of the creative process.
isn't creative process cruel?

getting stress is the key to success?

this thing is killing me.
killing killing killing me...
:-)

killing me softly with this 'assignment'~

nvm... have a lil faith christina.

God always make it happens! he never leaves you alone~

have a lil faith!

"no matter wht happens, stay calm...
look for a solution and don't blame anyone...
there will definitely be a way out of the dark tunnel!~"
- Quoted from Anna's boss -

hahaha

ciao ;)

Aku & Dirimu Cacat Vs

2009-06-08T07:22:00.001+08:00

Saya Malas

2009-06-06T17:19:00.003+08:00

I decided to start blogging again :-)

Simply because I feel bored doing nothing in this four-wall-room of mine.

Well, I just shifted here last 2 semesters. And now i have to shift by end of July because the contract is over and seems like my house leader does not want to continue the contract anymore.

hehehe....

But no worries because i think i already found a nice place!

With attach bathroom! (I dun have to share anymore!)
With Balcony!!!!! Whoaaaaaa... I'm gonna have my own BALCONY!
With loads of WINDOWSSSSSS and not just HOLESSSSS

HA HA HA...

AND MOST OF ALL,

THE RENTAL IS ONLY RM320 INCLUDING THE ELECTRIC AND WATER BILL!

My current rental is RM310.
Cekik darah tul!

Tapi kan... tapi kan.... tempat baru ni kena jalan jauh skit. :-)

Saya tak kisah sebenarnya... tapi kan... saya agak moody... nanti kan kalau saya kena 'MODINESS ATTACK' saya khuatir saya akan bertindak di luar kawalan iaitu ponteng semua kelas selama sebulan selepas tu kena bar. ha ha ha ha... :-P

Haruskan saya?

2009

2009-01-01T15:07:00.002+08:00

it's the first day of a new year.

so, happy new year~

how was 2008?

there's nothing much bout 2008. not much difference from 2007 :-) but there are differences... like... i'm older... yea... i'm older. and i dun quite care about anything anymore.

started to care bout myself more lately.

because caring is tiring... it's tired to care bout people whn they don't care bout u.

so, wht's gonna happen in 2009?

i hv no idea. but this year, i'm gonna spend less. and i'm gonna do some savings. i'm not expecting anything from 2009.

i'm not gonna wish or set a goal to anything at all. all those things will just dissapoint me more. i dunno how the road ahead of me is like. my bright light started to dim again.

hmmm... live is complicated. and i am tired of living. seriously. i hope that it's normal to feel that way... who don't get tired of living? i think bout death for at least once a week. the image of me bursting my own head with a gun seems to ease me in a way. i dunno how to explain. ermmm... whtever~

hahaha... i know wht u r thinking! i'm crazy? nah~ i am normal in a freaky way. that's all.

so, hello 2009. funny~ i dun see any difference in u, 2009... u r juz like 1987.

bye~ and god bless you!

home (cover)

2008-12-31T23:58:00.003+08:00

my BIG problem

2008-12-22T11:12:00.002+08:00

i have a problem...

a big one...

i think there are many people who have this kinda problem. like i do. i thought i could control it. but a few days ago, i realise that it's a bit out of control. *smile*

well, that smile was very fake - i know.

i thought i didn't like shopping.

well, it turns out to be...

damn... it's sad to know that i don't really know myself.

ha ha ha...

err... let's just go to the point.

I'M A BIG SPENDER
*background music: BIG SPENDER - PEGGY LEE followed by SFX: drum rolls*

*faint*

tht's it!

u know how i console myself? i do it this way...

"change everything to USD and i'm no longer a big spender~ damn, it's cheap!"

hahahaha...

but, hmmm... i'm lying to myself. so~ wht should i do?

my mum once told me that i spend alot... she said my phone bill is too high... *demmit! i dun even know who i called*

i only call several people... like ma mum, ma dad, ma mum and ma dad then ma sis then ma sis, then ma sis, then anna, and anna, and anna, and anna and anna! hahahaha.... then rest would be... i dun really call people. well, i used to~ but not anymore.

so guys, if i call u, u should go and buy toto.

okies~

back to ma spending problem...

the only way to solve this is that

"i need to be able to earn as much or more than my dad"

whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

tht's not easy man!

daddy, how u do tht?

okies.

but this problem is not really that bad...
i am willing to spend on something i think worth it! and i am willing to spend on someone i love.

haizz... tht's cancerion i guess. loving and caring.

so the conclusion is, come to christina when u need love. ha ha ha *evil laugh* but make sure it's at the right time. cuz she's damn moody *smile*

tht's all for today.

i will blog about my bad habit on the next entry

loads of love,
-christina da future lover of all-

p.s- this entry is specially updated for my dearest voldemort. i believe she who-must-not-be named is missing me alot. and so do i. hahahaha...

are you weird?

2008-12-07T06:56:00.004+08:00

i think kirk hammet is weird... hahaha... look at this! he's kirk hammet!!! metallica's lead guitarist...

haha... is it true that most successful people are weird?

einstein is weird...
johnny depp is weird...
bruce lee is weird too... he is not like how he looks...
who else is weird?

britney spears is weird...
michale jackson is weird...

there are many more weird people...

lesson of the day: if u wanna be successful, start acting weird from now on.

i tend to act weird sometimes...
let's take this as a good sign... to something BIG in the future

looks like i'm gonna be the future STAR! ha ha ha...

... wish you were here

2008-12-06T17:49:00.002+08:00

miss my mum and dad...
*sob sob*
few more days to go!

Last kiss (cover)

2008-12-05T21:53:00.002+08:00

This is a request from khairul. so, enjoy it though it sucks. hahaha...da~ have a good day n god bless!

perfect? perfect.

2008-11-29T05:07:00.002+08:00

when we pay too much attention to the details, we tend to forget to see things around us because it's impossible to look at every single details. we tend to leave out something somehow. the beauty of things around us is that not everything is perfect. there will always be flaws.

when we claim something or someone as perfect, there will no longer be any value in it... no more meaning... no more liveliness... no more varieties and no more beauty. well, god created the best creature on earth with flaws which is not perfect - and they are human.

the best thing is always not perfect. actually, every single thing is not perfect. but at the same time, god created everything and he said that they are all good. so, does it means that everything is actually perfect? every single things - it doesn't matter with or without soul, becomes perfect because they compliment each other. so, i can't really say that nothing is perfect because we are all living in one perfect world. it's just like 1+2-10+7+12-2 will give you a perfect 10.

dictionary defines perfect as something with no flaws... something with only good value. but how do you define flaws and good value? good can be bad... and bad can be good. so, is it right when i say that no one or nothing is perfect?

sometimes killing can be good...
sometimes smiling can be bad...
sometimes stealing can be good...
sometimes helping can be bad...
sometimes lying can be good...
and sometimes being honest can be bad...

so, what is perfect?

world defines everything as not perfect...
but today, i realize that EVERYTHING is PERFECT

do you get what i mean?
or are you thinking that i am simply crazy?

if you don't understand, try to see 'perfect' from a different angle... then you will get what i mean. and cheers~ we are all perfect!

you are so perfect! and i am so perfect...

and i am not bullshitting... you are a perfect person who live in a perfect world :-D

we are all perfect.
god bless you and nite~

it's tuesday

2008-11-25T21:57:00.005+08:00

i went for the interview today.

i'm not sure if i did well or not... but i did some talking and sharing with the manager. he is nice. and he said this:

"you are a confuse girl"

cool~ but i don't think so i am that confuse anymore. i think i'm enjoying PR and advertising alot. hehehe... anyway, let's pray for the best! if they hire me, i promise i will give my best!

excitement is when you are able to achieve what you thought you could never do! got it! so, christina! go go! strive hard! prove to world that you are worth to be hired! so guys~ hire me!!!! ha ha ha *evil laugh*

well, that was about my interview.

after that, i went to moral class. it was ok~ boring~ but i didn's sleep cuz i was busy copying tips. hehe...

after moral class i went to midvalley with anna :-) anna wanna get a new pair of shoes... but at last she didn't... girls~ u know girls~ you can never understand girls. hahaha... *i am talking like as if i'm a dude*

well, we went for a movie... james bond... tht solace thingy! it was freaking hell boring! it's like a mother fucker boring MOVIE! one advice... DON'T WATCH IT!!!!!

but there are several messages in this movie....

1) nike's doing cheap labour in south america
2) soon, people will start a war because of water
3) the rich will get richer! and the poor will get poorer!
4) sometimes people don't need a reason to die! they will just die cuz james bond feels like killing them
5) somewhere in this world, people are killing each other... and at the same time, there are people who laugh happily without realizing how horrible our world is
6) stereotyping: give women SEX and they will be ur slave! *demmit! i hate this part. but this is wht james bond did to that girl... tht stupid girl*
7) politics' all about MONEY and INDIVIDUAL! there's no such thing like COMMUNITY!
8) sony ericsson is the best phone on earth *tht's how this movie shows it*
9) alpha romeo is the safest car on earth!
10) JAMES BOND WILL NEVER DIE

btw, james bond is evil! he is cruel! he is heartless! he threw his friend's body at the garbage dump!

well, after i listed all the messages out, this movie aint that bad after all...

Kerispatih - Lagu Rindu (cover)

2008-11-22T04:02:00.001+08:00

Firefly Assignment

2008-11-21T20:06:00.004+08:00

so, this is wht my group did for our brand management assignment. our concept is something about dreams come true. errr... i think there are grammar mistakes... but i'm not sure. grant or grants? let or lets? this kinda thing confused me alot. do correct my mistake. my english is not good and i'm always ready to accept advice. and i don't mind people correcting me. so, dun worry, it's ok even if u wanna say that this print ad is ugly. but let me know how i can improve this to make it even better :-P

we got 25/30 for this one (part B). we lose mark because our message is not clear - according to Mr. Vincent Wee; our lecturer as well as tutor. hehe... he said it would be better to include the locations.

okies! i will make sure that i won't repeat the same mistake. hehe... i felt so happy when my lecturer told us that our ads and TVC are beautiful. it makes me feel that all the stress me and anna had to go through worth it!

we use light painting for this whole thing. emphasis alot on orange colour as it's firefly's identity. anna edited the stars, the scales and the plane... you know wht, it not easy... when she were editing that, she kept on saying *babi* and *cilaka*. that was so funny!!!!!! i should have recorded that -_-". and then, when she finished editing it on the first time, all of sudden, her laptop turn off itself! guess wht???? she hvn't save it yet! so it was like WTF~ she had to redo! hahaha... for these print ads, i contributed in arrangement as well as the copywriting. so, here u go, 3 print ads. looks simple... but it took us so many days to figure out how we should make it looks nice. *sweat* and thx to johnny! he gave us idea on how we could make the headline looks more attractive.

well, and we have one more TVC. errr... my lecturer likes the effects we did. and the whole class clapped their hands when we played our TVC. hehe... this encouraged me to try crazy things more often cuz when u it turns out good, it juz makes you feel so~ ahhhhh~ tht kind of feeling is unexplained. but there's one thing i don't like bout this TVC. my voice over is horrible! the emotion is wrong, the tone is out! it just doesn't give that kind of dreamy feel i tried to put in the tvc. Alex even laugh at it... he said "what the hell????? ur voice is...????" hahaha... but hmmmm, nevermind~ i'll improve myself the next time whn i have to do this again. ha ha ha... so, here's the TVC...

that's all from me~ thx for reading.
have a nice day n god bless!

la la la~

2008-11-20T21:31:00.007+08:00

testing torchlight~ this one was taken on the night of shooting session for the Firefly TVC.
everybody, test ur light! ha ha ha... woot~

hvn't blog properly for quite a while. last few daysSSS was nightmare for me. glad that i made it through... it was bad... i accidentally hurt many people's feelings. i don't mean it. it's just that i'm not God... i'm human and i'm an emotional one. so, whoever feels it, i'm sorry :-)

whenever i'm stress, i tend to ignore everyone around me *but never my family*. i will not pick up their calls, i will not reply their sms and i will not reply the message they sent to me in yahoo as well. sometimes, i dun even reply back whn they talk to me face to face. this is NOT good... i know. but i can't help it, sometimes... i juz need my own space to do my things, to let the inspiration comes and to let the idea flows. people said i am very scary. :-) yea i know. but i believe that everyone who's in my situation will act that way. if u never act that way, that means you had never been there before.

ignore me and my moodiness~ :-D whn i don't reply whtever u said, it doesn't mean that i'm angry or mad at ya~ it's just simply that i want to be alone for a while thinking about how i should solve the problems. yup! that's all... after solving the problems, i will forget every single things i hated... forgive n forget. that's it! since God always make sure that i make it through, the next time, i will try to be more patience... i will try to hide my emotions and feelings so that i would not offend anyone. he he he...

but still, i only trust God and my family.... and never to forget my few friends whom i can count with my fingers... maybe some toes.

the moment i step out from my house; staying away from home, i learnt that there's no one i can rely on except for God and of course my family. there will be no one in this world who will truly bear your burden like how God and your family do. there will be no one who will fall sick and worry about you except for your mum. there will be no one who will wipe your tears and really really feel your pain. no one at all... it's a cruel world out there.

everybody seems to be so nice... so nice that you don't even know who you can really rely on...
everybody smiles to you so sweetly... so sweetly that you didn't notice that the moment you smile back, you will lead a bitter life...

horrible? but that's life~

am i being negative?

being negative or positive is just something people invented to fulfill their own needs and desires. complicated to explain why... erm... but i think you can think about it yourself.

i'm actually a very simple person.

you treat me well, and i will treat you even better than how you treated me

you kick me once, it's ok... i don't mind~

you kick me for the second times, it doesn't matter... i will let you kick me for a few more times... then i will make sure that you regret it for the rest of your life.

i will not hate anyone immediately...

trust me... don't take advantage of me too much. i'm human. it's tiring.
if you don't mean to take advantage on me... just keep silent.

or am i setting the bar too high?

loath me after reading this? i don't care a damn...
you will still smile to me tomorrow... and i will still smile back to you~

cuz it's the world of forgive and forget...

da~ n god bless ya

this is juz a tiny bit from the overall

2008-11-16T04:19:00.003+08:00

this is juz one tiny bit from wht i have to do. one tiny bit!!!! serve u right! now it's too late for u to change the concept! change the story board????? think of a new idea???

christina, you have no choice but to carry on~ let's see wht's gonna happen.

pray for sunny day tomorrow. no rain please. no rain! not even one tiny drop for the whole day and night.

da~

:-D

2008-11-16T00:24:00.003+08:00

erm... hi...

things i hate for a time being:

1) internship here in KL. suck ass...

2) erm... light painting animation is complicated... what makes me think that i can do it in the first place? God, save me!

3) i'm sick... but not that bad

4) myself! erk... things? i'm something? lol

byebye! god bless ya

Light painting animation (1st attempt)

2008-11-13T01:44:00.003+08:00

testing on some simple animation. using stick man. ha ha ha... not so nice. *excuse me miss christina. it's not nice at all!* but whtever~ i still need to improve alot. whn there's a will, there's a way!

whn i m struck by boredom... or stress? or boredom? or stress? whtever~

2008-11-11T06:24:00.003+08:00

emo :-) not nemore

2008-11-10T20:06:00.002+08:00

when you feel down and you just need something to console you, who is the first person you call? do you often say this...

"Oh my God"

"Help me Lord"

it doesn't matter what language you use. but that's what human do. all the times. i'm not sure bout atheist though. but that three magic words O.M.G is part of our life. something no one can deny. and for those who deny it, they just don't realise that that's what they do when they are in trouble.

studying is fun...

according to many people i know...

yes, it is fun... i wouldn't say that it is not.

but studying is so stressful. it is so stressful that i kept on dreaming bout blowing my head off with a magnum revolver and seeing pieces of my brain scattered everywhere. even though this kind of dream doesn't give me any satisfaction, i do not know why, it somehow gave me a sense of relieve. what if i die? can my brain finally stop thinking? peacefulness. but NO. i'm a christian. i can't suicide.

but is that the main reason which is holding me from doing it?

well, most of all is that i can't stand to break the hearts of those who love me. so, i must keep on moving; stepping on those thorns which make me bleed but definitely not powerful enough to kill me.

everyone is born with problems.

big or small, problems will remain problems. and they are never anyone's favourite.

i called my mum just now. and she used her motherly manner to console me which is by listening to me 'bebel'. hahaha...

and u know what i found out about life?

there will be one stage in your life, where your tears will drop when u heard ur parents voice from the phone. especially at the time when you needed them around you the most. it doesn't matter if they scold you or beat your buttock like those time when you were a kid. all those things remind you that there are people who love you and care about you. this is something you can never find from people apart from your family. even if you manage to find one, the feelings is definitely not the same.

hypocrite world.

we are all living in this hypocrite world and slowly turning into a hypocrite one.

fuhhhh~ whtever...

over here i have something to share with everyone who is facing the same problem as me. it's something i quote from bible. beautiful song written by King David.

Psalm 37: 1-11

do not fret because of evil men
or be envious of those who do wrong;
for like the grass they will soon wither,
like green plants they will soon die away.

trust in the lord and do good;
dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
Delight yourself with the Lord
and he will give you the desires of your heart.

commit your way to the lord;
trust in him and he will do this:
he will make your righteousness shine like the dawn,
the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.

be still before the lord and wait patiently for him;
do not fret when men succeed in their ways,
when they carry out their wicked schemes.

refrain from anger and turn from wrath;
do not fret - it leads only to evil.
for evil men will be cut off,
but those who hope in the lord will inherit land.

a little while and the wicked will be no more;
thought you look for them, they will not be found.
but the meek will inherit the land
and enjoy great peace.

i will bear that in mind.
all i need is patience and faith.

it is so hard to be human.

good bye and god bless ya.

-no stress no stress no stress-

touch my body~owh yay yay yay yay

2008-11-08T02:54:00.001+08:00

trust me... you have to view this!

ju ju ju ju~ juliet~

2008-11-08T02:09:00.000+08:00

can't help it. it's now modern talking season for me...

oh ju~ juliet~

my mum's syndrome attack

2008-11-07T02:17:00.003+08:00

look at wht kind of song i'm listening to right now! demmit! i used to laugh at this cause it's so GAYYYYYY! i still think it's gay but i dunno why it seems to suit my mood now. am i gay? brother louie louie louie... lolz

First time

2008-11-05T02:25:00.004+08:00

kids will always look cute no matter what they do. these two lil boy got very excited looking at the fish. i don't know wht is so special about that. maybe it's their first time seeing so many of those in the pool~

there are so many first time in our life. right? i can't remember when was the first time i experience wht those boys are doing in tht pic. can you recall your every single first-time?

let me see how much i know about myself:

1. the first time i cry
- my mum said right after i was born. the doc hit my butt! cruel! cruel!

2. my first word
- papa. i could talk whn i was 8 months old.

3. my first step
- i was 9 months. i talk before i walk. that's y sometimes i tend to be bossy.

4. the first bad word that i spoke
- 'chao cheng'
hahahahaha.... learn it from... i dunno

5. the first time i whistle
- when i was 4. i tried to follow 'Ami Ankel'

6. the first time i kick a boy
- it was at thailand. this boy bullied my brother. so i kicked him. i was 7

7. the first time i punch someone right on the eye
- i was 8 years old. and this dude is 11. he cut the queue. *i was at thailand. we were queing up to get our food*. i dunno why i got so mad... i juz gv him a punch... at his eyes... everyone was shock and i was shock too. tht was the first... and for a time being the last.

8. the first time i fell in love
- i was 8. and this boy sat opposite to me is cute. ha ha ha ha...
*see see... i'm natural born STRAIGHT!*

9. the first time i cried because i'm afraid of losing my mum
- again... i was 8. there is no perfect marriage... but that doesn't mean that they can't last. hehe

10. the first song i wrote!
- now this one is funny. the title of the song is 'the symphony of my heart'. written for a crush. wakakaka... i was about 17 or 18.

11. the first chord i learnt how to hold!
- it's C chord. i was 12. then i stop cuz it hurts like hell! i thought i would never play guitar again. then i start to play again when i was 16.

12. my first guitar teacher
- my sister, melisa. haha

13. the first time i felt the pain of losing love =((
- when i was 19. dem... it hurts like hell. but after that i never felt hurt again :-P hehehe seriously.

14. my first cat
- it's white in colour... i can't remember its name. my lil bro accidentally killed it.

15. my first handphone
- a butterfly nokia... wht's tht? i was 16. that was also my first time staying away from home.

16. oh yeah... skip too many... the first time i had my period
- i was 11 and still stupid. i dunno that it was menses. hahaha... bodoh~

17. the first time i found out about intercourse
- i was 11 too. this girl, hidayah told me , buveena and talitha (both are my friends). hidayah said this:

"cikgu kata kan, laki punya masuk tempat pompuan kencing"

my reaction was... no wayyyyyyyyy! u r lying! it was just so hard to believe... during that time.

18. my first malay friend
- nadja liza.

19. my first indian friend
- kumari

20. my first chinese friend
- my sister's friend's brother.

21. the first time i pluck my eyebrow
- i was 20. it hurts like hell. and i never ever pluck it again. no way! besides, it turns out worst. well, my natural eyebrow looks nicer.

22. the first time i drive and my mum seat at the passenger seat.
- i was 17 ++. i almost knock a lorry. since then, my mum don't trust me anymore when i drive.

23. the first time my dad ride my car.
- i was 19. he slept so soundly. we were on our way from KL to JB. he let me drive. i speed till 130 km/h *jakun* and i almost knock a petronas treller cuz i was sleepy. since then, they never let me drive at the highway anymore. till recently.

24. the first time i skipped the class and hang out somewhere else.
- i was 19. u know where did i go? it's a lame place. i dun wanna go to school cuz i wanna sleep. so i drove the car and park it at Kulai's Public library. then i sleep in the car. lame right????? why dun i drive to JB???? stupid~

25. the first time i watched a movie in the cinema.
- i was 9 years old. and the movie is Jurassic Park. the first one. it was a bad experience. we got the front row!!!! well, front row in a cinema is not good at all. but still i enjoyed it

26. the first time i jump from a bus
- i was 13. i board the wrong bus... and the bus doesn't wanna stop. so i jump. weird. why cant i wait??? dem it hurts. my knees bleed! still hv the scars. kecacatan! buruk gila!

there are too many first time. i think i will stop here. bye

it's 4th Nov

2008-11-04T17:56:00.004+08:00

today i fell into the drain and i forced myself to smile cuz i don't wanna look bad. lol.

moral of the story: don't try to jump into a drain. tq

finally, happy birthday dad~

god bless you and goodbye.

when i'm gone (cover)

2008-11-01T02:27:00.006+08:00

this is a request from doyot.

when i'm gone - 3 doors down. ok~ now, doyot, u owe me a goodall. i want the hawaiian version of goodall... har har har *evil laugh*

oh yeah... u dun owe juz me. u owe rage ur lagu cari makan (recorded version).

come on guys! take this opportunity to make doyot sing! you will never believe it when you found out wht this butak can actually do with his voice n his guitar *grin* i never met such talent before till i met doyot~ *dunia* =(( sing doyot sing! :-P
*siao liao*

okies~ enjoy. n hv a good day. god bless ya.

ps: u dun wanna listen to this if u love 3 doors down. there are so many 'cacat' part in my version. ha ha ha... ciao~ :-P

happy halloween

2008-10-31T01:57:00.006+08:00

today is a tiring day... correction; yesterday was a tiring day... but i don't know why i still can't make myself sleep. i slept for about an hour and then i woke up fully fresh! i dun like it... no one likes it. i juz can't sleep peacefully. the moment i close my eyes, my brain will start to think. think bout wht? i dunno, there seems to be a never ending story going on in my brain. am i troubled? i don't think so i am. there is no reason for me to feel that. insomnia? i do sleep but after i felt really really tired... i don't even know when did i sleep. when i wake up, it's already the next day... mostly late.

i felt so tired juz now. i should be able to sleep... why can't i sleep? i want to sleep like a normal human being. i don't wanna be a vampire during the night and ended up looking like a real blood sucker during the day. this SUCK!

i tried drinking milk before i go to bed... it doesn't work

i tried tea like wht sis cutie suggested but it juz doesn't work

then i tried milo the energy drink! but my eyes juz dun wanna close

i tried reading dictionary but i ended up thinking that it's interesting... damn

so, i try blogging but no, blogging doesn't make me sleep

anna said maybe my room is too dark... so she bought me this cute lil lamp... but it still doesn't work!

after that i thought maybe i need some music as a lullaby, so i turn on some songs softly to make me sleep but no! i juz can't sleep. he he he... :-D

playing guitar doesn't make me sleep as well...

maybe i should try sleeping pill... but pill???? tht sounds scary. makes me feel like a psychotic.

or should i get myself drunk? maybe not drunk~ juz make myself a bit dizzy... cuz i tried that before and i slept soundly... but it's not nice, you know... sweet girl shouldn't get drunk! har har har... as if~

well, there's one reason apart from God that tells me that i shouldn't get drunk... and the reason is~

my dad always said that girl should have long hair... and they should not get drunk. lolz

this 4th November is gonna be his birthday. his 58th birthday. can u believe it? hehehe...

i'm going home! but not on the 4th. too bad~ 2 days earlier.

ahhh~ and now, i dunno why my tears keep on rolling down. is it normal for all cancerion to have the mood of a preggy women? ha ha ha...

u know wht? i love my mum and my dad sooooooooo much eventhough sometimes staying home make me sick!

i'm a drama queen. ignore me. ha ha ha

anyway, happy halloween... and here's a short video dedicated to all of you :-) enjoy it :-*

love,
-christina-
god bless ya~

i'm yours (cover)

2008-10-29T18:43:00.005+08:00

here you go! sorry yea... i use classical guitar... it sounds abit funny. hahahaha... neway, i dun care! scuddy doodle! u have to record something and post it to ur coming-soon-blog! ha ha ha... *evil laugh*

and the sound is a bit soft :-D something's wrong with ma mic. so pandai2 adjust ok~ ciao and god bless ya! muaks!

and one more thing... i sound dying here... sorry for making you listen to such a horrible cover of jason mraz's 'i'm yours'. bla~ haha

khas buat ayu

2008-10-27T03:11:00.002+08:00

:-)

2008-10-26T19:15:00.001+08:00

today is a hot hot day.

i don't like hot hot day.

my body goes itchy itchy. i don't know why...

i can't study when it's hot.

i can't think when it's hot.

i can't sleep when it's hot.

i hate it.

today is a hot hot day.

bangkok dangerous

2008-10-25T15:38:00.003+08:00

i went to watch bangkok dangerous just now and i finally understand why did they show no one but only nicholas cage on their poster... it's simply because all the other main actors and actresses are thai except for nicholas cage. by looking at the poster, people will form a perception that it's a movie directed by the american. but no no, bangkok dangerous is a thai production. it's cool how they manage to get nicholas cage to be the main actor. u know?????? nicholas cage from face off?????? conair????? it's HIM!!!! eventhough he's kinda old... and honestly he looks old here... but he's nicholas cage. so, it doesn't matter if he's old. he's still nicholas cage. ha ha ha

the story line of this movie is not special... they play it safe. something people will always like eventhough they might have seen it 1000 times in hong kong movies or american movies. it's about an assasin... yea~ and u should be able to guess wht happen next~ another cliche. but there's something bout this movie that i like. there are many interesting dialogs in this movie... mostly monologues. the first thing that caught my ear was this one:

"i sleep alone, i eat alone but i'm used to it"

it sounds so sad... which makes me like it so much. and there's one more thing about eyes. it's like 'when u look at someone, look at their eyes cause eyes never change'. something like that. not exactly like that though.

it's not bad. u can try to watch it. okies. tht's all. bye and god bless ya!

he he he in an evil way

2008-10-23T01:05:00.010+08:00

well, i tried something with anna juz now. we wanna do some light painting cuz we saw a very cool ad from sprint. it's like somekind of animation using light. hehe... it's not easy cuz u need to have a very high imagination. this is wht we get after several failures~

this one is the nicest one. the rest is like... no comment. hahaha... after messing around with light painting. we got bored. since we are both the creative advertising kids~ we decided to try something different with this camera.

well, one of the function of this camera is to capture happiness~ so, we shall utilize it to the max! the pictures u gonna see are happy moments between two creatures...

we thought we need models to produce this collection *which u will find out soon*. the stars that we had chosen are.... jeng jeng jeng~

WELCOME!!!!

*BABY PINKY & BABY ANGEL*

erk... yea... we were both bored :-)

anyway, this is kiddies porn. hope u enjoy it.

p.s: momma, if u read my blog, dun be mad... me and anna were juz trying to have some fun :-( love ya! muaks! ha ha ha

guitar

2008-10-22T21:08:00.007+08:00

i tried something with the lighting juz now. and it turn out... ok~ never know that i can actually take this kinda pic. anyway, sorry yea. i juz simply combine it all and it turned out like the one u see at the top. hehehe... i will upload a proper one to flickr whn i have the time to do proper editing k!

do let me know which part i need to improve on... i need to do something bout brushing up ma photography skill! tapi kan.... malas seyh wa nak gi search pastu jalan2 semua! malas! dah ar! bencik! gambar cam taik! bluekkk~ hehehe....

thx for reading neway. have a nice day and god bless ya! muakkkssss!

hehe... one more~ but cacat one. look at the bottom right corner. hahaha...

the unexpected

2008-10-22T06:49:00.003+08:00

wa macam tak caya... tapi muka sama. nama depan pon sama. betulkah? rambut pon gerbang cam tu. patut la wa tgk cikgu ni stylo semacam...

u knw tht band 'sweet charity'?

with ramli sarip as the vocalist?

and the guitarist is rosli mohalim?

u know what is my guitar teacher's name?

his name is rosli. i call him cikgu rosli.

he looks just like rosli mohalim.

OMG! cikgu guitar wa superstar!
*pengsan*

dah :-D wa semangat balik nak main guitar. bangga seyh. korang jeles ar tu. cikgu guitar wa guitarist terkemuka malaysia ok! >:P

jeles??? jeles???????

ha ha ha...

patut ar asyik cancel class je time tu.
takpe cikgu rosli. saya akan cuba sedaya upaya untuk tidak memalukan cikgu! go cikgu go!

i wasn't born on sunday

2008-10-19T22:52:00.003+08:00

confession:
1) today, i didn't wake up at 8.30 am
2) i didn't go to the church.

and i learnt a lesson.

"bangun pagi, murah rezeki"
-quoted from Rage.

hahaha... i will bear tht in mind! :-P

i went to midvalley juz now. alone. yup. i didn't ask any of my friend whether if they wanna join me cause i feel like i wanna be alone today. less complicated. well, i went to watch this movie >>> KAMI. i dunno wht else to see. and i thought maybe this is not bad. well, the storyline is the cliche type. it's the kind of ending everyone would be able to guess in a second.

not that bad... just that there's 'no alarm... and no surprises... no alarm... and no surprises' :-P *geee* gila lak wa...

neway, wht i get from this movie is that everyone has their own secret. and sometimes it's better if u don't know about it.

my mum told me that before. she said, don't go and find out something someone try to hide from you unless u think u can bear the consequences. life is complicated! if u wanna survive, juz don't care bout anything. u know tht song? 'let it be... let it be~~~~!!!!! let it be... let it be....'. juz let it be! yea :-D

talking bout don't care and won't care... is it very negative to have tht attitude? try to look at it from a different angle. it's not that bad~

EXAMPLES:-
1) i don't care if u are a prostitute, i'm gonna marry u!
* dem! isn't it wonderful????*
2) i won't care if u were a murderer. life is always unexpected!
*no more judging!*
3) i won't care if ya hv no boobs. as long as u have pussy.
* pesal this one cam statement lesbian? babi!*

hahahahaha..... OK! terkeluar tajuk. neway, wht i wanna say is tht if people start practicing 'won't-care' and 'don't-care' attitude in a positive way, this world would be such a wonderful place~ just like the 'hippies' dream. nothing but peace-ful-ness.

ok. i think i am tired and sleepy. but i need to do some revision first. before i regret it again n again. i LOVE books.... and i thought i miss all those assignments. hehe... way to go! gambate! go go chris! push push! *uweeeeeeeeeeeeeee* here comes the baby. erk. bye. god bless u. muaks.

the first sunday in a new place.

2008-10-19T00:08:00.003+08:00

saturday. i should have gone out juz now. it's ok! i will make sure that i'm not in my room for the whole day tomorrow! i think i wanna wake up at 8.30 am tomorrow. then, i must go to church. i dun want another horrible week in my life.

i don't know why... i can't do bad things. the moment i start doing something bad... or wanting to do something bad, bad things would follow up. things with letter S mind ya. so, i have to behave... behave myself. that's why most of the time i only think! but never really do it. hehehe... however i wouldn't say that i'm a nice person. i'm bad and i'm evil. har har har... nah~ i think everyone is bad and evil in a way. it's juz how bad and how evil are u? so, don't walk to me and tell me that u are an angel... we are all sinners~ bla bla bla... btw, i'm not judging anyone yea... this is juz my personal opinion. hehe...

my first week of new semester was ok~ nothing exciting. juz ok~ an okay means okay~ a bit better than 'kay-o'. okay?

this semester one of the assignment is to produce 3 print ads, and 3 non-traditional advertisement. ha ha ha... 6! 6 ok! it's 6! 6 of them! again~ we have to find a not well know brand which is about to die or juz newly launched and create a new profile and personality for it. lol... concept again????? another ad campaign???? urghhhhhhhh.... think christina! think! well, there are 4 other brains :-D we always think together. we think alot... that sometimes we just went nuts~ neway, u knw tht song? >>> "always look at the bright side... da da da da da da da" :-D this assignment is definitely FUN! last semester my handphone went in the pool during media planning assignment's photo shoot... i wonder wht would happen this semester. hopefully something more fun! like perhaps... erm... i dunno... let it be a surprise.

ok :-D now i wanna try to read something. i dun care nemore. call me 'kiasu' or whtever... i can't afford another failure in my life. am i too young to say tht? no one is too young for anything. yup! and no one is too old for anything as well! we are never too young... and we are never too old.

all of sudden i thought of this story bout my dad. lol. my dad sometimes have a very funny way to deal with funny remarks. well, recently, my dad applied for sg's PR. he is 58... wow... i never thought of my dad's age till today. how i wish i could do something for my parents. back to the story, my dad's friend was teasing him about applying PR at this age. and u knw wht my dad told them?

"the coffin is made for dead people, not for old people"

hahahaha... dem! ma dad's pretty smart eh? if he was a PR, i think he would be one of the best. :-P

morale of the story. i'm immortal. i will not die. HA HA HA! byebye. god bless u~

d'masiv

2008-10-17T00:12:00.003+08:00

lagu ini best! owh cinta baru saya sudah muncul - D'Masiv. i get to know this band from Mic! Mic is an online friend i knew since i was in form 3 if i'm not mistaken. dem...! dah! wa terasa tua! bye~ neway lagu ini sungguh best!

get ready to bleed ya ears

2008-10-09T17:51:00.003+08:00

haha... takde keje... out of tune banyak. sowie~ but who cares~ as long as i enjoy it! dem this song! demmit! my fav song for this week. k! bye. god bless ya

Mind ya ingrish

2008-10-08T04:23:00.003+08:00

look at wht i found in my mailbox~ lol. there are more. but i only like the pervert one. dedicated to all the perverts. muaks! anyway, this might be photoshop.